The voice inside my head

Have you ever have two personalities in you yourself? Sounds like dissociative identity disorder and sort of like Niki Sanders (Ali Larter) in Heroes doesn't it? Lol..But I ain't talking as major as that; I'm talking about the little small whisper/voice that is in your head. Yup...the second me...

Don't really remember when the last time I realise this matter but until I realise it that it is a problem, I thought it's normal. And trust me, it isn't. Normal is when there's a peace in your head that doesn't or will not cause you a brain damage. I was a very small kid and I love thinking. Thinking makes me feel good. Thinking makes me able to see from every angle of an aspect and guessing what will happen next. Thinking makes me able to understand a person of how he thinks and responds. And thinking is when I was able to hear the voice of my "friend".

Yup...I used to refer him as a "friend" because he was very close to me and he's my duplicate; we're able to do brainstorming and discuss on a topic. He was really good as he encourages me to do anything. But then again, he was myself.

Realise that it was a problem around last year. It was really bad as I was trying to cleanse my mind and rejecting things that are bad i.e. pronography, vampire (used to be my favourite), enterntainments that occupies my brain (playstation/TVB series). And I suddenly felt that this "friend" of mine was not really the 2nd me. He was the "evil" me. The one whom I always dreamt of myself having sharp fangs and fire on my body. The one who let me do anything that I please. But when I was "cleansing" my mind, he was rejecting so hard that I almost felt that I was having a mental problem. I almost consider to see a psychatrist! Until that night when Ben & Jo were telling me that Pastor Mark was going to visit their house on consultation regarding spirits. And I thought of asking him how to identify the voices in my head. Who to and to not listen to? How do you know whether what you're doing is right or wrong?

The answer? It lies right in your head =D It just depends whom you trust. I am much better today than that day. But really...it creeps me out. Oh well...it is a bye to that old "friend" of mine.